To claim that I had fallen in love would be false.

I could say I liked him a lot because it sounds better. I liked the idea of having a man in my life that cared about me . Jeff and I had definitely birthed a bond that I held dearly and I had hoped that for once in my life, a man would keep his word to me.

We had met over a year earlier to the day that I first had sex with him, but it was only until he confessed his intentions, that I decided to give him the green light towards rearranging my guts. It had been a few months filled with bliss for me but of late, I had been  having my doubts.

Months into whatever situationship I had hesitantly but willingly abided by, I started to see the cracks. I was no longer getting the compliments I was accustomed to basking in and my back was breaking from literally carrying all the conversations we had. He stopped calling at all and texting me as frequently as he had done in the recent past and I knew deep down in my gut that I was about to go through the cycle of instability from ‘reckless’ men that I had become too well acquainted with. Nilinusa io upuzi from afar and I knew that this time, I had to be ten steps ahead. I had become exhausted by the constant back and forth about him not putting in as much effort to keep me as he had done to get me as well as his apparent nonchalance. Amidst all this, I decided to meet Darrel.

Darrel, like most men I meet, had known of me for a while. He would occasionally shower me with gifts in the hopes of luring me into noticing how badly he wanted me but like I said, it had become a cycle for me and I could see the end even before I had begun talking to him.

XX

It was a rather chill evening when Jeff and I got home from lunch. We had been fighting a lot and I could tell that I was getting bored of the situation due to my reciprocated indifference. In addition, mans was sleeping around with way more women than I thought. I had stumbled upon texts, hair strands in his bathroom (na champe ni kipara), mara sijui udaku za Nairobi na ata eyelashes on ‘my side’ of the bed and this beat his reason for him to still keep me around. I won’t deny that I felt betrayed, mostly because he had sold me lies all along about the type of person that he was. Iliniuma but ilibidi nizoee. That right there should have been my cue to leave but you see, I had a little more hope left and I didn’t want to let go of consistent dick just yet.

 Our sex life was faltering because he wasn’t all over me as much as I would have liked him to be anymore and sometimes, I had to ask for sex. (ata siamini). Occasionally he’d decline, sometimes he’d give me a boring lazy round or two and to be honest, the type of woman I am dictates that mjulubeng inafaa kunirwada masaa yake. Nilikua najiuliza tu, mimi Robertta Bobbie naomba dick? Mimi? Lol. Inakaa uyu mjamaa alikua tu ameniskia lakini hanijui poa. It was then that I decided to take strides towards ensuring that my happiness and satisfaction were a priority…

 We were lying on the couch watching a movie, my head on his shoulder, when a DM notification blinked on my phone. I picked my phone up and when I saw that the message was from Darrel, I adjusted my position to make sure that Jeff wouldn’t be able to read my message. Darrel had been giving me all the attention that I wasn’t getting from Jeff anymore. The slight distraction was a blessing in disguise and I was embracing it, I mean, kuna mjamaa ananitreat kama queen na hajainidishi but look at my mumu self, cuddled up with someone who was probably going to fuck the next girl immediately I left his house. In the same spot even. I thought hard.

Darrel had been trying so hard to take me out and I felt that I had nothing to lose by agreeing. I decided to message him and allow him to do so , hapo tu kama nimekaa next to champe. Hahahahahhahahah, Local man was beyond ecstatic and for me, it felt good to be yearned for sexually, I was so horny! I went to bed that night scared and feeling a little guilty but I knew Jeff and I were as good as done. I was just waiting for the day one of us would erupt, which was a bad idea by the way, I should have walked out the moment I found out I was selling myself short.

XX

Siku ya kupatana na Darrel ikafika. Friday moja safi pale nikaenda restaurant, ata nikavideo call Jeff ndio aone the faithful ghel that I was, eating alone while reading a book nini nini. Darrel and I had agreed to go to a hotel for a little more privacy, sikua nadai kuonekana na yeye in public lest someone recognized us . I had done a little bit of my own research and to be honest, I wanted to fuck him already. We had been talking for a while now and I felt like I was ready to let another man, other than Jeff that is, touch me. That was the best decision I ever made my friends.

Darrel struck me as quite an arrogant fella at first, I felt like I might have been making a huge mistake. Yaani from the frying pan and straight into the fire. Mi nilikua tu nadai shtick and I was gonna be on my way out of there, at least to make it to dinner in time with Jeff. I was trying my best not to harbor any sort of emotions towards him. I was impressed by the confidence he exuded though; a man who loves being in charge is always a turn on.

XX

The whole time in my head, a battle between my morals and needs had ensued. I wanted to feel wanted and I was getting exactly that, but a part of me kept telling me that two wrongs didn’t make a right and I could have handled everything better. But did Jeff care anyway? Was he ever as bothered as I was each time he spread another woman’s legs apart on the very same bed he lay me, with the exact same lies? Did he really? I had my answer.

Darrel got us a room and a bottle of champagne, he said it was to celebrate that I had honoured him with my presence, lakini of course ilikua ya kunimarinate. When we entered the room, we almost immediately got cozy as we awaited the food and the more we talked, the more I saw how much better I deserved to be treated. He had nothing to say but sweet words and mnaeza sema he was being nice only because alikua anadai tu kunidishi but I was okay with that, it was gonna be a one time thing tu. I didn’t care.

He leaned in closer to me on the bed to kiss me. Saizo moyo ina palpitate tu, fuuuuuuck, I couldn’t believe I was letting this happen! I kissed him back and I liked it. The kissing grew more vigorous with time and I knew that this was the home run. His hands slid in between my thighs and he separated my legs just to have a better gateway to this piece of heaven. We were both seated upright on the bed, I leaned backwards to lie flat so he could get on top of me. He was looking at me the way you look at waiters in a restaurant wakipita na food sazile unangojea yako,. The anxiety, the anticipation, the promise of wild robustness in his eyes sent me reeling with excitement all over the bed, trying to get comfortable so we could both take our clothes off. I could tell that he couldn’t believe I was right there, in bed with him. He was hard AF.

I was shy. I remember thinking about how used to Jeff I was and now, I was here with a new man. He pulled me to himself and began kissing me slowly all the way from my neck going south. He kissed me on my chest and stopped for a while on my full breasts, licking my nipples one at a time while cupping my boobs in his hands, massaging and caressing them, bado akishuka tu. He was holding my body while kissing and licking every inch of it the way I liked it! He went down further to my tummy then paused as if to tease me.

 He looked up at me and said, “I’m about to change your life and I don’t think you’re going to go back to ‘your Jeff’ after this,” with a confident smirk on his face. He was right.

Heh! Mnajua sijawai kulwa mpaka nikaskia kukojoa, hio cunnilingus ilikua imeenda shule. Ni napkin ya kuweka kwa collar tu na cutlery huyu msee alikua amekosa because if you ask me, he was literally having me for dinner. Kamnyweso kalikua kameshika so steam imepanda na huko chini nimemwaga kuliko drainage system za Nairobi kukinyesha.. He was eating me out like a hungry dog, holding my thighs tight on to his ears as earmuffs. My legs began shaking at this point and I knew I was about to cum. My low and steady moans were transitioning into loud screams and I could tell that that was sufficient motivation to push him to go on and on. His tongue was massaging my clit and his whole face was in there, he even kept coming up for air as if he was scuba diving. Ilikua afasali adrown.

Time ilikua imesonga crazy and I knew that Jeff was about to call me so ilibidi nimechanua Darrel achangamke. He had eaten me out for so long that I could have sworn those orgasmic chills were enough for me. We were just getting started though. His dick was huge. It was fat, juicy and bulging out of his underwear. Hio ningejaribu kupeana head, mngenikujia kwa morgue wallahi. Hapo niliogopa! He opened a box of condoms and wore one then almost immediately rammed his manhood into my pussy and right there was when I knew that I deserved better than Jeff. That was the kind of pump that I had been yearning for.

The thrusts were getting quicker and with each push into me, I could feel my body thanking me with little spasms of joy. The dick was so damn good that I was able to forget everything else and focus on the immeasurable pleasure I was being subjected to. I was happy. He fucked me with so much passion, military-ing, because nilijua tu angenipindua ningeraruka oesophagus, kifo cha mende. I was enjoying every minute of his dick inside me especially since I was extremely horny na ile pande ingine nilikua napimiwa mjuolz kama antibiotics. I was ready for my walking to be altered after this session.

We decided to take a break after he came, just to eat ndio nguvu ya mechi irudi and just as I was eating, in bed, with Darrel, Jeff called. Heh! Sema kutetemeka! I knew that if I had let it go to voicemail, he would have got suspicious so I picked up.

Jeff: Babe, uko?

Me: Huku tu. Bado sijamaliza meeting

Him: Ooh okay sawa, how long should I give you?

Me: 30 mins tops because I’m just about to get a cab. I’ll call you when I’m near?

Him: Okay sawa. Bye babe….

A dry ass conversation. I don’t know if he could tell that I was trying to keep it brief, but I knew I was gonna have to answer questions later on at dinner about how my ‘meeting’ went. I could see the disappointment on Darrel’s face when I got up to get into the shower. I know he had hoped for more on that day, but from what he had just done, I was confident that I was definitely going to hit him up for our round 2.

My cab was there in a few minutes and D walked me to the car after freshening up as well. I also didn’t want to leave but, I had to. I called J to tell him that I was on my way and bid Darrel goodbye as I got into the car. During the ride to my dinner date, I was thinking about all the nasty things I wanted to do to Darrel the next time I would see him. I couldn’t wait and just then, as if we were communicating telepathically, he texted me,’ when’s the next time I get to see you?’

I smiled at my phone and deleted our thread of messages as if I had instinctively developed the urge to be a little more cautious and secretive. I arrived and I could see J waiting for me as I walked into the restaurant. In my head, the words NEXT TIME were all I was thinking of. My naked body in Darrel’s embrace, his huge fat member inside my mouth. His warm tongue on my clit… Next time!

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